I don't, though? [ uh ] I mean, I love them, but for something this important, I can only rely on myself. You get that, don't you?
[ bringing other people into it means too many uncontrolled variables. he just doesn't trust easily, if at all, never had anybody else in which to place that trust ]
[ he doesn't trust easily, either, so, yeah. he does get it. there's one (1) single person in this entire place that has earned even a modicum of his, so maybe that is part of what makes this feel genuine as an offer.
he pulls his hand back. ]
...But you just confessed to me for two trading cards. Perhaps now, with the dead returning to us any day now, you ought to tell them.
[ ??? confess to them that he's a serial murderer, who acted on his own without regard to anybody else, who trusted neither his teammates nor his friends, who kept quiet while they tried so hard every week to figure out the truth, who not only refused to trust but betrayed the trust given to him
nothing good would come out of it. at least Temenos had trading cards ]
[ oh, sweet hanako. his mouth pulls into a frown, and he's quiet for a second, thinking that over. this conversation feels familiar, somehow. ]
... Will they? Or will they hate it more that you hid it until the very end? What happened to Danny and Vane is still fresh, if you chose to tell them just that. And, there is a certain kind of bravery in being willing to own up to what you've done, after the fact.
Vane and I were quite close, you know. I don't hate you, for what you did to him; beyond the answers, I am glad that you told me, even if I had to bribe it out of you. [ the last part is said with a bit of humor, a wry smile, before he continues. ]
I don't know Ryuki as well, but I do know it would mean the world to Datz if you told him. If they wanted to keep you safe if killed, why would that stop when you did?
[ Ryuki's a police officer. He'll definitely hate the idea of living under the same roof as a murderer regardless of what Hanako's reasons were. Datz might understand his reasons, but he's also a nice guy in general- there's no way he'd forgive so many transgressions ]
The same reason you'd want to keep a puppy safe, until it grows up to be a wolf that's killed half your flock. I'm the evil spirit of a murderer, Temenos...
[ he's the furthest thing from a sweet innocent child ]
You have to give other people the chance to decide on their opinions of you fairly. Otherwise, you only assume. You do the people you care for a disservice by leaving them in the darkness.
[ and it's... hard. it's hard, for a moment, because he thinks of the events of thursday, of vane, of the implications of the evidence, and he thinks of kaldena and the way she threw crick to the side as collateral damage, for knowing too much. i'm the evil spirit of a murderer, he says. he died because there was no sense in living in this dark world of despair, arcanette's voice echoes.
...temenos falls silent, for a moment, and it takes him longer to speak because of it, but when he does, it's measured and serious. ]
...I cannot tell you what to do one way or another. But I can warn you, that you have a very precious window of time to confess to them of your own volition. If you want the two of them to support you, you will have to give them that chance honestly.
[ That's not what he wants. If they hate him, it'll hurt, but he'll survive. If they want nothing to do with him ever again, if they decide to cast him aside and leave him here he might be able to live with that too, but. ]
I just wanted to get my team home. That meant doing what those two wouldn't.
That's right. I couldn't have them hold out at the very last second— I couldn't take that chance.
[ He couldn't trust the Fox team to pull through, he couldn't just leave them alone, he had to make sure, and the only way he could make sure was if he... ]
I told myself that I would do anything— anything— to save her. So that's why I...
The lesson, here, is that a lack of trust is a double edged sword. You may have secured your team's victory in an arbitrary contest, but the Fox team had long planned their outing this week. Are you prepared to deal with the consequences that will come from this knowledge becoming public in the gods only know how many days?
[ As easily as he could commit all those murders again if given a second chance, he would face any consequence as long as it meant his world was safe. He'd told himself that the very first day, and he'd help onto it, no matter how many bridges he has to burn to get to the end. ]
I don't care what happens to me. I already don't have a future. There's nothing left for me to lose.
[ The person he wanted to protect, though, she has so much to gain. It was never a choice for him to begin with. ]
[ no!!!!!! that is a touchy topic, and even if he could, it's... it's not his choice. that is what it comes down to. ] You are a spirit who walks and breathes in this world. There is a marked difference.
[ temenos will not be addressing any of these comments at this time because that's a lot of emotions and things he refuses to address with anyone else. goodbye
instead he just asks this to redirect: ]
Will you be taking on a living form? Or continue to exist as a spirit?
![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
no subject
I don't, though? [ uh ] I mean, I love them, but for something this important, I can only rely on myself. You get that, don't you?
[ bringing other people into it means too many uncontrolled variables. he just doesn't trust easily, if at all, never had anybody else in which to place that trust ]
no subject
[ he doesn't trust easily, either, so, yeah. he does get it. there's one (1) single person in this entire place that has earned even a modicum of his, so maybe that is part of what makes this feel genuine as an offer.
he pulls his hand back. ]
...But you just confessed to me for two trading cards. Perhaps now, with the dead returning to us any day now, you ought to tell them.
no subject
[ ??? confess to them that he's a serial murderer, who acted on his own without regard to anybody else, who trusted neither his teammates nor his friends, who kept quiet while they tried so hard every week to figure out the truth, who not only refused to trust but betrayed the trust given to him
nothing good would come out of it. at least Temenos had trading cards ]
no subject
... Will they? Or will they hate it more that you hid it until the very end? What happened to Danny and Vane is still fresh, if you chose to tell them just that. And, there is a certain kind of bravery in being willing to own up to what you've done, after the fact.
Vane and I were quite close, you know. I don't hate you, for what you did to him; beyond the answers, I am glad that you told me, even if I had to bribe it out of you. [ the last part is said with a bit of humor, a wry smile, before he continues. ]
I don't know Ryuki as well, but I do know it would mean the world to Datz if you told him. If they wanted to keep you safe if killed, why would that stop when you did?
no subject
The same reason you'd want to keep a puppy safe, until it grows up to be a wolf that's killed half your flock. I'm the evil spirit of a murderer, Temenos...
[ he's the furthest thing from a sweet innocent child ]
no subject
[ and it's... hard. it's hard, for a moment, because he thinks of the events of thursday, of vane, of the implications of the evidence, and he thinks of kaldena and the way she threw crick to the side as collateral damage, for knowing too much. i'm the evil spirit of a murderer, he says. he died because there was no sense in living in this dark world of despair, arcanette's voice echoes.
...temenos falls silent, for a moment, and it takes him longer to speak because of it, but when he does, it's measured and serious. ]
...I cannot tell you what to do one way or another. But I can warn you, that you have a very precious window of time to confess to them of your own volition. If you want the two of them to support you, you will have to give them that chance honestly.
Perhaps it is time to be brave.
no subject
I don't want their support, I just...
[ That's not what he wants. If they hate him, it'll hurt, but he'll survive. If they want nothing to do with him ever again, if they decide to cast him aside and leave him here he might be able to live with that too, but. ]
I just wanted to get my team home. That meant doing what those two wouldn't.
no subject
And you didn't want to take any chances, in case something about our revolution of this system went wrong.
[ he gets it, in a sense. it doesn't change anything, but he can see the logic. ]
... Is that why you had Vane kill Danny? To try and force him to take responsibility for Fox?
no subject
[ He couldn't trust the Fox team to pull through, he couldn't just leave them alone, he had to make sure, and the only way he could make sure was if he... ]
I told myself that I would do anything— anything— to save her. So that's why I...
no subject
... ] How did you utilize the drum?
no subject
[ Temenos' insatiable curiosity ]
no subject
no subject
I made Vane hold his ax. That's it. I couldn't intervene too much: it had to be him, for it to count.
no subject
[ after a moment, he shakes his head. ]
The lesson, here, is that a lack of trust is a double edged sword. You may have secured your team's victory in an arbitrary contest, but the Fox team had long planned their outing this week. Are you prepared to deal with the consequences that will come from this knowledge becoming public in the gods only know how many days?
no subject
[ As easily as he could commit all those murders again if given a second chance, he would face any consequence as long as it meant his world was safe. He'd told himself that the very first day, and he'd help onto it, no matter how many bridges he has to burn to get to the end. ]
I don't care what happens to me. I already don't have a future. There's nothing left for me to lose.
[ The person he wanted to protect, though, she has so much to gain. It was never a choice for him to begin with. ]
no subject
Goodness. [ god this competition is stupid. ] I wonder if that will still be true even when this is over. I suppose we will just have to wait and see.
no subject
...Are you going to bring Crick back?
no subject
Crick isn't here - that's a non-sequitur.
no subject
[ bringing crick back, hanako having a future, it's the same thing: impossible ]
no subject
[ no!!!!!! that is a touchy topic, and even if he could, it's... it's not his choice. that is what it comes down to. ] You are a spirit who walks and breathes in this world. There is a marked difference.
no subject
I can't stay in this world, and I won't go to any other than my own.
[ He's going to go back to being a spirit who floats and is doomed, and tells himself he's going to be okay with that ]
It's okay to be selfish, Temenos. It's okay to just do what you want.
[ bring crick back just because you can!! ]
no subject
instead he just asks this to redirect: ]
Will you be taking on a living form? Or continue to exist as a spirit?
no subject
[ and he's ... okay with it. it's okay. ]
no subject
[ (x) doubt ]
no subject
I'm alright with that.
[ he has to be. he chose this for himself, after all, and these are the consequences ]
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)
(no subject)