[theoretically it could be satan which would actually make him a lot angrier, but no. probably danny. who in his mind is like 7 years old emotionally so its less distressing probably.
he had such a plan in mind to deliver some tough love but he was disarmed by the injuries. giving him a hug right back.]
I missed you too, but nope. Datz is going to flip if he sees those bruises. Remedy time.
[hands in his pockets, firm. he... isn't going to force hanako to accept a remedy if he really refuses to, but he also doesn't want to keep playing this game.]
I think Datz will be upset if he sees you like this, so out of consideration to him at least, you should take a remedy. I'm not going to make you, but I'm telling you what I think is the right thing to do.
[ Ugh. He was hoping Reigen would take the bait, but instead he's insisting on acting like a responsible adult wanting to make sure the kids are safe. Is it the right thing to do? taking care of himself? debatable. ]
...I'll just end up getting hurt again afterwards anyways, so there's no point. Besides, you should be saving those remedies for the upcoming encounter. That's when people will be hurting and need the help. This is nothing.
Hey. I'm not arguing, I'm telling you it's the right thing to do for the people who care about you and have already had to worry a lot the past couple days. You can decide if you're going to listen to me or not.
...I know how to swim. I've seen it. I don't really feel like going there to swim right now. I only like to go swimming with people who think about other people's feelings.
[ The correct answer is probably no, but he also knows he does all sorts of horrible things for the sake of whoever he's slighting. It's for their safety, or happiness, so isn't it alright? ]
Well, no offense, but I don't think you're doing a great job at it.
[it is emotion share week so i'll say that he doesn't really seem angry. more than anything, he's a little sad and exasperated, and a little awkward, because he really doesn't like to scold people but he's realized that never scolding someone is sometimes pretty unfair.]
Geez. You're so smart, you know? [well. but.] You work harder than anybody. But you really don't get this, and it's a big problem.
[ There's no offense taken, because he already knows that's how he is. He does brighten up when Reigen says he's smart and a hard worker, but overall it's just this... mild confusion over why this is such a big deal. ]
...you're right, I don't get it. I want to protect the people I care about, and I'll do anything to keep them safe. As long as they're safe, it's fine if they end up hating me.
[ It's not fine, and it hurts to think about it, but if he had to choose between ensuring somebody's safety and receiving their love, he'd choose safety every time. ]
Janeway was mean to you, and Danny made Nimona feel bad.
[ so he killed them, as is the normal reaction to such things ]
Vane... The entire Fox team, really. They're some of the nicest people I know, who stuck it out until the last second and they still hadn't killed anybody. So I helped.
[ "they're been planning on-" HE DIDN'T KNOW he didn't want to take any risks, when he could secure a guarantee with his own hands ]
[his heart sinks a little at the confirmation of what his problem with janeway was. great. that's what she'd theorized, but he hates that it was right.]
No. You didn't help. I understand it was your intention to help the Fox team, but what actually happened didn't help. It made everything worse for them. Likewise - killing Janeway or Danny didn't make Nimona or I safer. And it definitely didn't make your team safer.
[he sighs, a little reluctant, but.]
You actually put a lot of people in danger. I need you to understand something. If you'd been caught at any point, the person who would have died because of it was Datz. Or, if it was the week you killed Satan, the week I was the other culprit, the person who died would have been me. Datz and I have discussed this before. You might disagree, and think it's wrong that it would happen like that, but it doesn't matter. You're lucky you never got caught enough that something like that had to happen, because if it had, it would have been your fault.
[ It's wrong. Despite everything, he looks up to both adults, knows he can count on them, knows her can come to them, knows they've been helping keep everybody together. And then there's him: a brat, a twerp, the evil spirit of a murderer and all those things people have called him and they're all true. ]
If they had to choose, they'd choose you. Because you're alive, and you can do so much. I'm already dead, so there's no need...
[okay. crouching a little to get more on eye level, putting a hand on his shoulder.]
...Hey. Look. I just - I just want you to understand that it's serious, okay? I know this is hard for you, too. But I need you to understand that we care, and that we would choose you, so you can't go around acting like the risks you take only hurt you.
[ he frowns a little, because he has been taking this seriously, and didn't Datz say it's okay as long as he doesn't get caught? not those exact words, but
... ]
Then what an I supposed to do? Just sit back and let everybody take care of me?
[ do nothing and hope for the best?? bc as far as he's concerned, that's all that's left if he isn't out there raising hell ]
[he can't read your metatext but he's pretty sure datz didn't say that bud.]
No! I mean, sometimes. You can't do everything on your own. But in general, I think... the way you've looked at our situation and every week tried to come up with something you can do to improve it is very admirable. [he truly was in the graveyard like. i know i should be mad, but i'm a little impressed by how proactive this kid is.]
You knew the Foxes needed to meet their quota, and you wanted to find a way you could help to ensure that happened. I would never tell you to stop seeing problems like that and trying to find a way to solve it. But your plans have all failed, because the solution you see is the same thing every time. You've never stopped to think whether a plan hinging on something you're good at is the same thing as a plan being good.
[ All the praise that proceeds this makes him uncomfortably happy, in that "I'm going to give you the good news first, then the bad news" sort of way, and in the end it boils down to him not being enough. Like how Temenos called him, a "wayward lamb," he doesn't lack in effort; he just needs direction. ]
Yeah, yeah. "Violence isn't always the answer."
[ It's the answer sometimes, though. He's solved a lot of his problems with violence. ]
I get it, okay? I need to listen to people, and cooperate with them. [ and he goes /: at this because he knows he's bad at that, he's just not used to it ] It's just hard. I've never had anybody to work together with before. And even if I keep failing, as long as I keep trying, I'll eventually break through.
[ It'd be great if he could get along with people! it'd be great if he could learn how to work together! but look at this kid, this is a kid who had no friends all through middle school and then took another fifty years to make his first one ]
[he will just say that. there have definitely been problems here that can be solved with violence.]
You say that, but keeping trying the same things that fail hoping it's going to succeed eventually isn't a great strategy. [he sighs.] But you say that like it's just you. Everybody needs to work with other people. No one can solve every problem on their own. It is hard. It would be nicer if we didn't have to ever depend on someone, because you can't control how hard another person tries the way you can control yourself.
[that's fine. he didn't have any friends in middle school either.]
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he had such a plan in mind to deliver some tough love but he was disarmed by the injuries. giving him a hug right back.]
I missed you too, but nope. Datz is going to flip if he sees those bruises. Remedy time.
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Ehh... It's nothing new he hasn't seen before.
[ it's a weekly occurrence for him, getting beat up, slow to heal and doing nothing to help his body along if Will doesn't come grab him by the scruff
But he follows Reign anyways, because of course he does ]
Have you been to the beach already? Tama's teaching me how to swim, so if you don't know yet, I can teach you!
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[hands in his pockets, firm. he... isn't going to force hanako to accept a remedy if he really refuses to, but he also doesn't want to keep playing this game.]
I think Datz will be upset if he sees you like this, so out of consideration to him at least, you should take a remedy. I'm not going to make you, but I'm telling you what I think is the right thing to do.
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...I'll just end up getting hurt again afterwards anyways, so there's no point. Besides, you should be saving those remedies for the upcoming encounter. That's when people will be hurting and need the help. This is nothing.
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Hey. I'm not arguing, I'm telling you it's the right thing to do for the people who care about you and have already had to worry a lot the past couple days. You can decide if you're going to listen to me or not.
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[ he's not going to listen ]
So, about the beach...
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[ he does. the problem is that he ignores it and continues doing what he's doing anyways ]
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And if you think something is going to hurt someone's feelings, do you keep doing it?
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[ The correct answer is probably no, but he also knows he does all sorts of horrible things for the sake of whoever he's slighting. It's for their safety, or happiness, so isn't it alright? ]
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[it is emotion share week so i'll say that he doesn't really seem angry. more than anything, he's a little sad and exasperated, and a little awkward, because he really doesn't like to scold people but he's realized that never scolding someone is sometimes pretty unfair.]
Geez. You're so smart, you know? [well. but.] You work harder than anybody. But you really don't get this, and it's a big problem.
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...you're right, I don't get it. I want to protect the people I care about, and I'll do anything to keep them safe. As long as they're safe, it's fine if they end up hating me.
[ It's not fine, and it hurts to think about it, but if he had to choose between ensuring somebody's safety and receiving their love, he'd choose safety every time. ]
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Who was safer, because you killed those people?
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[ The first thing he did was get rid of Satan! you're welcome! ]
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I don't think so. I don't think killing Janeway helped any of those people, or killing Danny, or Vane.
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[ so he killed them, as is the normal reaction to such things ]
Vane... The entire Fox team, really. They're some of the nicest people I know, who stuck it out until the last second and they still hadn't killed anybody. So I helped.
[ "they're been planning on-" HE DIDN'T KNOW he didn't want to take any risks, when he could secure a guarantee with his own hands ]
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No. You didn't help. I understand it was your intention to help the Fox team, but what actually happened didn't help. It made everything worse for them. Likewise - killing Janeway or Danny didn't make Nimona or I safer. And it definitely didn't make your team safer.
[he sighs, a little reluctant, but.]
You actually put a lot of people in danger. I need you to understand something. If you'd been caught at any point, the person who would have died because of it was Datz. Or, if it was the week you killed Satan, the week I was the other culprit, the person who died would have been me. Datz and I have discussed this before. You might disagree, and think it's wrong that it would happen like that, but it doesn't matter. You're lucky you never got caught enough that something like that had to happen, because if it had, it would have been your fault.
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[ He's indignant, angry, not at the claim that it would've been his fault but that it would've been Datz or Reigen who would've taken the fall. ]
That's a lie- both of you are beloved, and nobody in their right mind would vote for either of you, especially not to protect me.
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Sorry, but that's how it would go.
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[ It's wrong. Despite everything, he looks up to both adults, knows he can count on them, knows her can come to them, knows they've been helping keep everybody together. And then there's him: a brat, a twerp, the evil spirit of a murderer and all those things people have called him and they're all true. ]
If they had to choose, they'd choose you. Because you're alive, and you can do so much. I'm already dead, so there's no need...
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[okay. crouching a little to get more on eye level, putting a hand on his shoulder.]
...Hey. Look. I just - I just want you to understand that it's serious, okay? I know this is hard for you, too. But I need you to understand that we care, and that we would choose you, so you can't go around acting like the risks you take only hurt you.
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... ]
Then what an I supposed to do? Just sit back and let everybody take care of me?
[ do nothing and hope for the best?? bc as far as he's concerned, that's all that's left if he isn't out there raising hell ]
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No! I mean, sometimes. You can't do everything on your own. But in general, I think... the way you've looked at our situation and every week tried to come up with something you can do to improve it is very admirable. [he truly was in the graveyard like. i know i should be mad, but i'm a little impressed by how proactive this kid is.]
You knew the Foxes needed to meet their quota, and you wanted to find a way you could help to ensure that happened. I would never tell you to stop seeing problems like that and trying to find a way to solve it. But your plans have all failed, because the solution you see is the same thing every time. You've never stopped to think whether a plan hinging on something you're good at is the same thing as a plan being good.
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Yeah, yeah. "Violence isn't always the answer."
[ It's the answer sometimes, though. He's solved a lot of his problems with violence. ]
I get it, okay? I need to listen to people, and cooperate with them. [ and he goes /: at this because he knows he's bad at that, he's just not used to it ] It's just hard. I've never had anybody to work together with before. And even if I keep failing, as long as I keep trying, I'll eventually break through.
[ It'd be great if he could get along with people! it'd be great if he could learn how to work together! but look at this kid, this is a kid who had no friends all through middle school and then took another fifty years to make his first one ]
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[he will just say that. there have definitely been problems here that can be solved with violence.]
You say that, but keeping trying the same things that fail hoping it's going to succeed eventually isn't a great strategy. [he sighs.] But you say that like it's just you. Everybody needs to work with other people. No one can solve every problem on their own. It is hard. It would be nicer if we didn't have to ever depend on someone, because you can't control how hard another person tries the way you can control yourself.
[that's fine. he didn't have any friends in middle school either.]
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