... Yeah. [that seems like it's a loaded statement for her, and she has to sit up again, curling her knees to her chest.] Stab it through the heart for glory. Be a hero for killing anything that's different.
[she starts ripping the grass up out of the ground, just to have something to do with her hands.]
[ That's a lot of how he feels about it too, except in his case, it isn't glory. It's necessity. You kill what's different because they're a threat— you kill them before they can become a threat— and the line only gets more and more blurred from there. ]
It's not like I can't see where they're coming from, but man... [ it's a pain having to behave!! ]
Being killed just 'cause you're out having a little fun [ smashing buildings and setting things on fire ] It sucks.
[ He looks a little surprised at the question, something he would've thought was obvious. He might look like a little kid, but honestly? it'd be better if more people were scared of him. They'd have good reason to, anyways. ]
Evil to me means there's nothing redeemable. [obviously she doesn't know if he's murdered like a bazillion people or whatever but he's been nice to her, so she doesn't really care all that much.]
[ It's always something to hear that he's liked despite everything he is and did. He's not quite sure what the at something is, exactly, but it's something. ]
My morals aren't that bad... [ but they are and he knows it, so it's less than half-hearted ] But that's good. Murder isn't something you can redeem yourself for anyways.
I don't think they are, but I'm not a goody-two shoes.
[she just simply does not think killing a person is a bad thing unless she liked that person and then you're the worst, probably. she's too old to be a good person.]
... I'm all wrong. [she says, after a second. closing her eyes.] I've been stuck for three days and it's - bad, it's unbearable.
It takes him a moment to fit pieces together, the fact that it's been three days that their powers got switched around, that Nimona's was a part of how she was back home, and now that's been changed completely. It's like when Hanako first got here and found that he had to breathe and eat and sleep— it was disconcerting, but at least it was how he used to be, however long ago. ]
...I wish I knew how to give it back to you. [ maybe if he kills Danny. that's starting to sound like a better and better idea. ]
Does anything make it better? Is there anything I can do to make it better?
[she would be lying if she hadn't considered killing danny to see if she'd get her powers back. seeing him transform today was a mess - he was protecting himself, but all she could see was what she didn't have. she exhales sharply and scrubs at her face.]
A couple people have offered to turn me into stuff. Like animals. With the Wonderballs. [she says, wrapping her arms around herself again.] It just feels weird to ask them to do it.
[owing people sucks.]
I wish I could fix it but I can't and I'm, like, I'm itchy, on the inside, I feel like I want to turn myself inside out. This can't last more than a week. It can't.
[she immediately looks sour at that first part. she does not want to be left with tiger!!]
And what's gonna happen if it doesn't work and you go on trial, huh? And you get voted for? [a beat.] I don't want to be alone with Tiger. I can't stand them.
[she doesn't really like any of the leaders, but she doesn't want to outright say that, considering.]
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she rubs at her neck.]
I don't know, I didn't see any. I think they all got, um. Destroyed. [...] Killed.
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[ It's news that supposed to be a relief, but he still sounds kind of bummed about it ]
I guess I was hoping otherwise. Not everybody killed. Axel refused to kill me.
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[hm. maybe axel doesn't suck, she thinks.]
Did you want him to? [she rubs at her wrists absently, at the joints.]
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That's... [ yes? no? did he want Axel to? that's not really the question he was asking himself at the time ]
...I expected him to. I mean, that's the logical thing to do, isn't it? Destroy the monster before it can come back and bite you in the ass.
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... Yeah. [that seems like it's a loaded statement for her, and she has to sit up again, curling her knees to her chest.] Stab it through the heart for glory. Be a hero for killing anything that's different.
[she starts ripping the grass up out of the ground, just to have something to do with her hands.]
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[ That's a lot of how he feels about it too, except in his case, it isn't glory. It's necessity. You kill what's different because they're a threat— you kill them before they can become a threat— and the line only gets more and more blurred from there. ]
It's not like I can't see where they're coming from, but man... [ it's a pain having to behave!! ]
Being killed just 'cause you're out having a little fun [ smashing buildings and setting things on fire ] It sucks.
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it's not like i can't see where they're coming from. she pulls her knees in more tightly.]
Are people scared of you, where you're from?
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[ He looks a little surprised at the question, something he would've thought was obvious. He might look like a little kid, but honestly? it'd be better if more people were scared of him. They'd have good reason to, anyways. ]
I'm an evil spirit of a murderer, after all.
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They're scared of me, too. [...] I wouldn't call you evil, though.
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"Spirit of a murderer" kind of implies "evil"...
[ like, he's not proud of it and doesn't like people knowing. but it is still a thing. ]
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Evil to me means there's nothing redeemable. [obviously she doesn't know if he's murdered like a bazillion people or whatever but he's been nice to her, so she doesn't really care all that much.]
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It's not like I'm trying to redeem myself or anything... but don't you think that definition is a little too lenient?
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Nah. Not saying you have to redeem yourself, either, just that I like you and I don't really care if you suck morals-wise.
[she's stretching again, but in a very ginger sort of way, trying not to wince.]
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My morals aren't that bad... [ but they are and he knows it, so it's less than half-hearted ] But that's good. Murder isn't something you can redeem yourself for anyways.
[ ... ]
What's wrong?
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[she just simply does not think killing a person is a bad thing unless she liked that person and then you're the worst, probably. she's too old to be a good person.]
... I'm all wrong. [she says, after a second. closing her eyes.] I've been stuck for three days and it's - bad, it's unbearable.
[she is reaching a Limit]
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It takes him a moment to fit pieces together, the fact that it's been three days that their powers got switched around, that Nimona's was a part of how she was back home, and now that's been changed completely. It's like when Hanako first got here and found that he had to breathe and eat and sleep— it was disconcerting, but at least it was how he used to be, however long ago. ]
...I wish I knew how to give it back to you. [ maybe if he kills Danny. that's starting to sound like a better and better idea. ]
Does anything make it better? Is there anything I can do to make it better?
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A couple people have offered to turn me into stuff. Like animals. With the Wonderballs. [she says, wrapping her arms around herself again.] It just feels weird to ask them to do it.
[owing people sucks.]
I wish I could fix it but I can't and I'm, like, I'm itchy, on the inside, I feel like I want to turn myself inside out. This can't last more than a week. It can't.
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He stands up, abruptly. ]
I'll do something about it.
[ That "something" is murdering Danny right here and now ]
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What? Like what?
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I'm going to go take care of Danny!
[ (: !!! ]
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it takes her a second, but.]
If you mean shank him, don't. I don't want to be the only one left. [her team!!
"is this the only reason she's protesting" good question]
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[ RIP your team, but Danny has to die ]
And you have me! And Mouse! I'm sure they'd let you be an honorary member, just like Tama is.
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And what's gonna happen if it doesn't work and you go on trial, huh? And you get voted for? [a beat.] I don't want to be alone with Tiger. I can't stand them.
[she doesn't really like any of the leaders, but she doesn't want to outright say that, considering.]
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It's not like I wouldn't have a good reason... [ he killed for Nimona's sake? surely anybody would understand that. ]
...is being alone worse than not being you?
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augh though this is a good question, and she opens her mouth - and then closes it. it takes a minute for her to figure out how to even answer that.]
I... don't know. [...] I've always been both. [alone and herself.] So I... I don't know.
[she glances at him.] I don't really care about the team stuff. I just don't always want to be the last one standing.
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