[ Usually, it'd be somewhere up high, quiet, like the school rooftop. But, considering where he'd woken up, it's probably not too much of a surprise that he isn't there if Nimona checks.
The second most frequent place he tends to gravitate towards is "home," and Nimona can find him on the Mouse's dorm roof that I'm not even sure has roof access but for the purposes of this pc he managed to get up there anyways. ]
[well, she can't fly up there this time, but... she's going to just ascend the building one way or another. she'll go through mouse dorm if she can or she'll climb the side of the ding-dang building, either way.]
Hanako's prob forgotten too, so he's startled out of his thoughts at the noise, leaning over the side of the building to see Nimona climbing her way up, expression some mix of confusion, surprise, and not a little bit of relief.
As soon as she's within reach, Hanako reaches his arm down to grab her hand and help her up the rest of the way. ]
[ Oof— Being picked up is a surprise, so much so that he just sort of stiffens up in her grasp for a second before he buries his face against the crook of her neck and hugs her back. ]
[she clings to him for a minute, hiding her face, and then:]
It's fine, you're here still. [she was just very afraid that he wasn't. especially after they just talked about how he'd be here. god.] Are you okay? Don't lie.
Even though he wasn't there, for a moment, that that felt like breaking his promise. Even though he feels like lying again this time, there's no way he can fool anybody at the moment. Maybe tomorrow he can try. ]
...I'll be okay. It... wasn't real. So I'll be okay.
[she'll put him down, but she doesn't really let go of him. she's kind of afraid if she does he'll vanish again. he was really cold. he might still be, but she's warm, so.]
You don't gotta be, though, you know that right? ... I haven't been on one of those but Nico told me a lot about the ones he's been on and I know they're bad.
[ At least he wasn't injured (he died) he wasn't INJURED but he thinks he'd rather come back like the other team missing eyes and limbs than have to go through what they did. It wasn't hard, he'd been okay through most of it, but still...
the guilt burrows into his heart and curls up like a hard black thing ]
It's just... watching people die. It being my fault they died. But they're not! They're fine. They're fine now, so... so...
[ so it's fine. he'll be fine. none of that was real, even though it felt it. ]
[she just wraps her arms around his shoulders and drapes, head on top of his.]
Yeah. [she's not going to lie she is a Little surprised that he feels bad about it, but. she supposes that she's not the only one that hides that sort of thing.] They're fine now, but.
Even fake stuff can mess you up. You don't have to tell me about it if you don't want, but just... I know. I know it can hurt.
[ I mean. if it was just the three of them dead he wouldn't have been so torn up about it, but it wasn't just them. even if it's fake!! especially when it's fake, because then you get stuck in an endless loop of "what if"s ]
...I never used to dream, you know? [ him being dead and not having to sleep ] I guess I'm just... I don't want to have to see it again, every time I close my eyes.
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w3, THURSDAY
where are you
answer
please
[and if he doesn't she'll come looking]
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it's fine she just wanders around until she finds him where is heeeee]
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The second most frequent place he tends to gravitate towards is "home," and Nimona can find him on the Mouse's dorm roof that I'm not even sure has roof access but for the purposes of this pc he managed to get up there anyways. ]
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Hanako's prob forgotten too, so he's startled out of his thoughts at the noise, leaning over the side of the building to see Nimona climbing her way up, expression some mix of confusion, surprise, and not a little bit of relief.
As soon as she's within reach, Hanako reaches his arm down to grab her hand and help her up the rest of the way. ]
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I'm sorry... I'm sorry.
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It's fine, you're here still. [she was just very afraid that he wasn't. especially after they just talked about how he'd be here. god.] Are you okay? Don't lie.
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Even though he wasn't there, for a moment, that that felt like breaking his promise. Even though he feels like lying again this time, there's no way he can fool anybody at the moment. Maybe tomorrow he can try. ]
...I'll be okay. It... wasn't real. So I'll be okay.
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You don't gotta be, though, you know that right? ... I haven't been on one of those but Nico told me a lot about the ones he's been on and I know they're bad.
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the guilt burrows into his heart and curls up like a hard black thing ]
It's just... watching people die. It being my fault they died. But they're not! They're fine. They're fine now, so... so...
[ so it's fine. he'll be fine. none of that was real, even though it felt it. ]
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Yeah. [she's not going to lie she is a Little surprised that he feels bad about it, but. she supposes that she's not the only one that hides that sort of thing.] They're fine now, but.
Even fake stuff can mess you up. You don't have to tell me about it if you don't want, but just... I know. I know it can hurt.
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[ I mean. if it was just the three of them dead he wouldn't have been so torn up about it, but it wasn't just them. even if it's fake!! especially when it's fake, because then you get stuck in an endless loop of "what if"s ]
...I never used to dream, you know? [ him being dead and not having to sleep ] I guess I'm just... I don't want to have to see it again, every time I close my eyes.
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I get that. [man. she wishes she could be a cat right now.] I don't really have anything that I can tell you that'll help. I wish I did. M'sorry.
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That's okay. I figure I'll just not sleep.
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[ force himself to stay awake until he passes out! then his brain would be too tired to dream. it's a foolproof plan ]
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You are determined to make me age. I am so old, Hanako. I am already so old.
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[ he's alive (sort of)! he's fine. nothing to worry about. ]
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[NOOGIES HIM]
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when she's done bullying him, though, she huffs, and finally lets go of him.
...]
... I'm glad you're here.
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[ He's glad he's here. He's glad Nimona's here.
He's glad he's alive, and that whatever happened back there, is fake and could never ever happen to them. ever. ]
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[nudges him.]
Don't be awake tonight. Okay?
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