[ it's confession hours again. he looks at Nimona pleadingly like he's hella cursed and he hates this so much, the way he can't squash the urge to confess all his sins the same way Nimona couldn't help but apologize endlessly that one time ]
[ cheek mushing gets her a little blossom of love but he's still also mad!! and offended!!! who's doing this, is it yae ]
I killed my little brother, I killed my assistant's best friend in exchange for her life, I actually have a lot of hero cards but pretended not to do people would give them to me, I punched Will once even though he did nothing wrong, I'm destroying all the pillars of my school for my own gains, there's a good chance what I'm doing will end the world, Will almost got executed because I voted for him, my little brother came back a demon and I can't kill him again so he's going to ruin everybody's lives, I imprisoned my assistant against her will to keep her alive, I lied to her and kept the fact that she is dying from her, I cheated on the CATs and killed Rita, I lost control once and almost killed a kid who was only trying to help me, I balded Ponta not just once but twice--!
He has to think about it for a moment, but no, the feeling is still there, and it's embarrassing and miserable and even then he's just a little little bit happy because Nimona doesn't (maybe?) think any less of him even after hearing all that ]
... I adopted a hamster with Mouse and then forgot about it. I think it's living in the ball pit eating the pastries Ryuki bought for us...
[ he's an irresponsible pet owner.......... this is killing him ]
[ it's just a possibility. a probable outcome. but maybe things will go okay for once and he won't destroy everything he touches ]
...There's somebody important to me, who I need to make sure is safe and happy, and alive... I need to make peace with my brother. And then, I'll have no more attachment to the world.
[ then he can take a joy ride with nimona and saya and maybe even eventually pass on into oblivion, he doesn't know. ]
Are you gonna be able to do that without help? [:T] I feel like little brother that's a demon that you can't bring yourself to re-kill is a huge obstacle.
[a pause.]
... Not to mention now I gotta worry that you're gonna bald people left and right.
You can't kill him! [ it's rushed, defensive, a knee-jerk response of "please don't hurt my baby brother" even though he knows there's only one way this can end.
he can't let anybody hurt his brother, he can't hurt his brother, but it's the only way to set either of them free. ask Nico for help? it doesn't even cross Hanako's mind. murder is the only solution and it's just a matter of how and when ]
[ So many of Hanako's Situations can be summed up with the fact that he doesn't know any alternatives besides murder. With supernaturals, slicing them in half doesn't constitute murder; they just lose their power and reform after some time. Inconsequential, really.
Not so with his brother. When Tsukasa is gone, he'll be gone... forever. And Hanako isn't ready to lose him again. ]
Maybe you and Saya can babysit him while I figure things out back at school...?
No. [listen she loves hanako a lot but she's not going to babysit his possibly murder-happy brother, hanako is already a handful and a half] We can figure something out, but I don't want to spend like all of my time once I get out of here having to break people out of jail.
[the idea of her having to be the child leash for tsukasa and saya both gives her hives]
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what's up little dude. how's it going.]
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[ it's confession hours again. he looks at Nimona pleadingly like he's hella cursed and he hates this so much, the way he can't squash the urge to confess all his sins the same way Nimona couldn't help but apologize endlessly that one time ]
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she looks at him with a combination of gremlin amusement and a :nyeh: emotion, and then kind of just. reaches to mush his cheeks with her hands.]
Okay. Tell me stuff and then I'll show you something cool if it doesn't make me mad.
[she realizes he's cursed but this is what he gets for trying to make her apologize before]
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I killed my little brother, I killed my assistant's best friend in exchange for her life, I actually have a lot of hero cards but pretended not to do people would give them to me, I punched Will once even though he did nothing wrong, I'm destroying all the pillars of my school for my own gains, there's a good chance what I'm doing will end the world, Will almost got executed because I voted for him, my little brother came back a demon and I can't kill him again so he's going to ruin everybody's lives, I imprisoned my assistant against her will to keep her alive, I lied to her and kept the fact that she is dying from her, I cheated on the CATs and killed Rita, I lost control once and almost killed a kid who was only trying to help me, I balded Ponta not just once but twice--!
[ please stop him ]
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the emotions are all over the place from like what the fuck to lol and sometimes the latter is not an appropriate response to what he's saying.]
Ooookay that's enough sharing thank you. [puts her hand over his mouth.] Wow.
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...
lowers Nimona's hand. ]
I ate the last pudding in the fridge and didn't tell Mouse...
[ curse said he had to confess all his sins. ALL of them. there's so many. ]
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this last one makes her giggle, honestly, like it's surprised out of her.]
... You finished, or. [she's kind of just amused. all of the murder and manipulation stuff doesn't really... surprise her... unfortunately.]
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He has to think about it for a moment, but no, the feeling is still there, and it's embarrassing and miserable and even then he's just a little little bit happy because Nimona doesn't (maybe?) think any less of him even after hearing all that ]
... I adopted a hamster with Mouse and then forgot about it. I think it's living in the ball pit eating the pastries Ryuki bought for us...
[ he's an irresponsible pet owner.......... this is killing him ]
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she will just hold his hand for a bit.] Almost there. These are the petty crimes. Probably.
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I... possessed my assistant once, and used her to cop a feel of her best friend's chest?
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[hanako please]
... Okay, I'm not mad, but like, that was a lot to process in one go.
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[ there is zero need to remember his sins!!!! he'd like to pretend they never happened too!! ]
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[honks his nose with her thumb and pointer finger.]
Is that why you said wait a bit before I come to find you? Because you might be ending your world?
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It's not like I'm trying to!
[ it's just a possibility. a probable outcome. but maybe things will go okay for once and he won't destroy everything he touches ]
...There's somebody important to me, who I need to make sure is safe and happy, and alive... I need to make peace with my brother. And then, I'll have no more attachment to the world.
[ then he can take a joy ride with nimona and saya and maybe even eventually pass on into oblivion, he doesn't know. ]
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[a pause.]
... Not to mention now I gotta worry that you're gonna bald people left and right.
[don't joke]
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he can't let anybody hurt his brother, he can't hurt his brother, but it's the only way to set either of them free. ask Nico for help? it doesn't even cross Hanako's mind. murder is the only solution and it's just a matter of how and when ]
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[she doesn't even know him!!! a beat.]
I just don't think you should have to. There's not another way to help him?
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[ said as if he'd never considered there might be another option this entire time ]
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[huff.]
Not that I know any alternatives. [idk when this thread takes place so she doesn't suggest nico]
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Not so with his brother. When Tsukasa is gone, he'll be gone... forever. And Hanako isn't ready to lose him again. ]
Maybe you and Saya can babysit him while I figure things out back at school...?
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pause.]
No. [listen she loves hanako a lot but she's not going to babysit his possibly murder-happy brother, hanako is already a handful and a half] We can figure something out, but I don't want to spend like all of my time once I get out of here having to break people out of jail.
[the idea of her having to be the child leash for tsukasa and saya both gives her hives]
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[ a knock-off discount Hanako for Nimona to have while he's busy with other things ]
And he can break himself out of jail, you don't have to worry about that.
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